Saturday, November 29, 2008

Hmm...reality maybe? Nah!

I could be mistaken but I do belive that reality has slowly started to sink in. Not quite yet, but it's at least knocking quietly on the door. I'm still doing my best to ignore it and get my hair washed and dressed on time to get to reality.

That said, I have a fairly massive amount of things to accomplish

And I was thinking it would be nice to have a little note at the end of each post with what I'm currently listening too. I've seen others do this and since music and mood is so very intertwined for me it should at least make the posts more interesting for me when I go back and read them later. And what's more important than that? Especially since I still haven't given this address to anyone so I'm the only reader of my blog. *grin* Even just looking at the last few (aka, me going from 'waitlisted' --> accepted) has demonstrated such a dramatic change in attitude. For one, I'm much more mellow now. Things that would annoy me a week ago now only draw an indulgent smile.


...which is kind of creepy I think for my family is has become somewhat tolerant of my mood swings as of late and now that I've just achieved an almost cat in the sun contentment they aren't quite sure what to make of me. ^_^ I live to confuse those around me. Ok, maybe not, but if I pretend that I'm deliberately causing the strange looks I so often engender that sounds better right?

Back to things I have to do. I've start eating away at the edges of my list(s) and started making even more lists. I already have three. One of them consists of random useful posts that I've found on valuemd. ValueMD has done such a wonderful job of giving me what I hope is a pretty good picture of what to expect of SGU and Grenada. For that, I'm infinitely grateful to those that post on the site. I even de-lurked myself after months of lurking to start posting myself. I think that it's the very least I can do and maybe a post or two of mine will be helpful to others.

So. Things that I have accomplished towards getting my sorry self to medical school:

PLANE TICKET!! It's really very official now that I have a plane ticket bought as of today. I'm taking a somewhat twisty route to the island but I consider myself as lucky since I'll be flying American Airlines and will not be stopping on any other island inbetween the good old US of A and Grenada. I'm flying to Tampa and then to Miami and then off to GND on the 2171 flight on the 13th of January. Official!!


Electronics and electronic related things: Camera! My wonderful father bought me a nice digital camera today. !! So I've been playing with that today. I'll admit to not knowing a terrible amount about cameras and photography in general but I really enjoy taking nature pictures (birds, birds and scenery) and the camera I have has a nice 10x zoom capability which makes me happy. Because birds always have tendency to fly away when you try to sneak up on them. Imagine that.

I also got a case for my new awseome laptop which has a massive screen so there weren't a whole slew of choices. But I'm happy with the one we found. My goal was to find one that wasn't so massive that I'd be cursing it in airports. >.>'


Let's see, I also spend many, many hours over the last few days combing through valuemd and random blogs from current sgu students. Ostentatiously to make lists of important things to bring.


I really need to re-join reality though and get on the ball with things at work. I have so many experiments I want to get done, paper/abstract like things to get written and clinical related things to square away and exhaustively document. And maybe, if HR manages to be competent, a replacement to train. All in the period of a month and a half, give or take a few days. Hmm, who here sees many weekends spent in the lab in my future? I wouldn't have it any other way though. I'm seriously going to miss my lab home.


But I'm trying not to allow myself to fall too much into prematurely missing places and people. Othwerwise I'll just spend the next month semi-depressed. If you know me you know that I don't do change well. Remember that Hershey's commercial? "CHANGE IS BAD" That sort of summarizes my view on life. And somehow, I think that leaving my friends and family and going to another country to study medicine probably ranks in the 'change' category. Maybe.


On that note I believe I'll go back to my list making. Till later!


*listening to: ヴァンパイア騎士Guilty 輪廻 -ロンド-and 砂のお城 as well as 東京 et 巴里 from のだめカンたービル. Oh, and I also found out that the opening theme of House, MD is actually off of a song by a group called Massive Attack. I heard it when I was rock climbing with my sister the other day and was mildly freaked out by actually recognizing a song on the radio. I, of course, immediately had to download it from apple's iTunes store thingy. Which occasionally proves to be useful the rare times when I actually want to find an english song.

Friday, November 28, 2008

I'm In!!

My Soon To Be Home:


Accepted!!! One of the most wonderful words in the english language. ^_^ No doubt the happiness will wear off in a few days when it really hits exactly how much I have to accomplish before January but for now I'm just basking in the acceptance glow.

すごく嬉しい!!ようやく医者になれるわよ!夢みたい~

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

The Universe Sure Showed Me

Well, the universe sure showed me. I was, apparently, getting a little too sure of myself. A kick seemed to be in order. A kick while I was down because I dared to think I might soon be able to get up. And not even to my feet mind you, just to my knees.

Waitlisted.

At SGU. And the waitlist just started yesterday. Talk about your terrible timing. So, if I had my application turned in a week earlier then I'd be dancing around happily right now? Is that what you're trying to tell me universe?

I cannot tell you just how bad I want to be in medical school right now. It's....pretty amazing really that I manage to go to work every day and not jump the next obnoxious looking med student I see walking down the halls. And by 'jump' I mean grab the nearest object and begin stabbing the crap out of someone while screeching incoherently about GPA and MCAT scores and how they aren't good indicators of how good a physician you'll be. I'm pretty weak though, truth to be told, so I now doubt have the crap kicked out of me. And I'd probably get fired. And then what would I do with my time? It would be scary. Ooh, maybe I could create a time machine so I could go back in time and beat up myself from the past.
"Oh, hello, why aren't you studying?!?!?! You are ruining your life you idiot!!!"

At any rate, I'm somewhat hopeful (but still full of plenty of despair dai maou sama) that since the list was just started that I'll have a good chance of getting off it. My admin counselor person told me today that once they sort out who is going to go to the GSP (bleh, not me) they will create a ranked waitlist. *crosses fingers* Here is hoping that happens soon and that I'm on or near the top.
おねがい、おねがい、おねがい!
Ah, I suppose that now would be a good time to mention that there will be a significant amount of Nihongo (Japanese for you non-asian aware people) in this blog because I often times think, talk and curse in Nihongo. Don't worry though, if it's something particularly interesting I'll probably type it out in both languages. Not that anyone cares at this point since no one is reading this but me at the moment! Yay, online journal. だっさい~

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Inagural Post

Hello all (well, no one at this point). I've decided to start a blog to keep people updated as to where and what I'm doing while in medical school since I will no doubt be very short of free time to e-mail and talk to everyone on a daily basis. Although I'm also fairly sure my posting frequency will be erratic at best. ^_^

I'm currently counting my chickens before they have hatched. So far, I've counted...hmm, ballpark figure here.... one. And that chicken's name is St. George's University (SGU). Otherwise known as the Harvard Medical School of the Caribbean. And since the real Harvard Medical School (along with pretty much every other med school in the great United States) rejected me I'm attempting to leave the country! ...hopefully. Hence, the chicken counting comment. I haven't actually been accepted yet. But I'm hopeful! Veeery hopeful. My admissions counselor expects decisions by tomorrow. So I'm anxious to get things rolling. Hence this blog. I predict my high blogging moments will occur during moments of extreme boredom and moments of extreme panic. Because blogging seems like an absolutely excellent way to procrastinate. And if you know me even a little bit you are aware of my propensity for procrastination.

At any rate, I've now created a blog (something I always swore never to do). Yay! Go me. If you'll excuse me, I have to go back to poking my chicken egg. I think I hear cheeping.